i'll never forget the day we first 'saw' our daughter!
we had gone multiple weeks in a row of her being borderline responsive to the weekly tests, making the decision each time to continue on with the pregnancy, giving her more time to grow. but then this particular week we went in and she was completly non-responsive to the nonstress test and followed that up by failing the biophysical profile. her growth was continuing to slow. so they told us to return in the morning and they would retest. if she failed again we would have no choice but to deliver her... 8 weeks premature.
we went in for the test, which lasts 30 minutes. there is a list of things she has to do in that 30 minutes or she's failed. we were down to just one minute left in the test before she did the last item on the list. even the nurses were cheering with us that she finally passed a test like she should! but i'm getting ahead of myself. while we were waiting for her to do that last item on the list we were able to 'play' with her. the nurse measured her feet for us... almost 2 inches long! then she measured her heart for us. we saw her stick her tongue out at as... silly, sweet, girl! and then she took a 3D picture of her for us!! we could see her thin little lips, her cheeks, her eyes, and her big brennan nose! : ) we couldn't stop staring at her! she was so beautiful.
we got to the car and sat together just crying over the picture. we both realized that this could very well be the only picture we may ever have of her without breathing tubes, feeding tubes, iv's, and wires all hooked up to her. there was no promise of her making it out of any of her surgeries. and as devastating as that thought was, all we could do was rejoice in the moment. we were looking at our daughter, our angel, our baby who so desperately needed a miracle, and she was perfect. absolutly perfect.
Jeremiah 1:5 Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart.
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